Prom..

Prom is this coming weekend, only 5 days away. I still have yet to order flowers or make dinner reservations, I've been so consumed in so many other things to focus my time on it. I really can't wait and I want to have fun, but things have been so crazy. I really think though that prom night will end up being stressful to begin with but once the actual prom starts it will be a great stress relief, and a lot of fun. Really I just can't wait to get all dressed up and go party with my friends.

My Character...

I cant stand that people will try to down my character, act like I am some kind of monster, some kind of terrible friend. I believe I have spent a very good while trying to prove myself as a good person, a good friend, always willing to do good for others. Just recently my very own father, or should I say a man who participate in my creation, because no father would do this to their own child, started to talk badly about me, saying that I was heading down the wrong road, that I was some selfish kind of monster. Then I told my friends about this, and the majority of them helped me through such a terrible time. Then there are these others, I'm not going to mention names, because that would cause more trouble than it is worth, but these people where willing to do the same. Act that I would hurt them intentionally, spreed rumors, and trash talk them. They know that I would never do this, but still are willing to say that I would, and then act like they have done nothing wrong. I am so tired of dealing with people like this, I'm so tired of having to face these problems. So I have officially ended my friendship with them both.

John...

So I have an older half brother who I haven't seen in thirteen years, give or take a year. The reason is too long of a confusing story for me to type, but over that last two years we have began to reconnect, and now right after graduation he is driving a few hindered miles to come see me, we are planning to do something fun like go to an amusement park, or a awesome concert, and he wasn't to do some sort of road trip since we have our entire lives to catch up about, we both will have been graduated from high school, he started college, and joined the air force, so there is so much about each other w have no clue about. I can wait and I think it's going to be one of the most exciting events of my life. I can't wait to see what's going to happen and start building a relationship with my brother.

ENFJ

So i psychology class we had to take a personality test and it the results where 4 letters that represented your personality best, each letter had a different meaning. I was a ENFJ, and after reading the different personality traits of that personality, I believe that it was mostly correct. The neatest thing about it was that my boyfriends personality, and my personality where these matches, that sounded just like us. I thought it was kind of cool. It said I was an Idealist, which is very easy to see when I think about myself, that I always plan ahead, and have big dreams for myself. I thought that was cool, because I always have been that way. Pretty much, the survey was really cool, and gave great results. I thought it was also really cool that the careers that it said my personality was great for where exactly the type of career i want to go into. The funniest part was my boyfriend and I where talking about this to his parents, and his mother admitted that she had taken the same survey, and that Her and My personality results where the same. I guess guys do tend to fall for people like their mothers.

Blogging Rants..

I feel bad because all I can think to blog about is me ranting about how mad I am at people, I think I have a problem with telling people how I Feel. I wish that I could be More open with people, so that I didn't have this bottled up anger. Well really I am an open person, I am just not open about things that will upset our hurt the people i care about. I don't want to upset anyone else so they have to feel the way I feel when I am upset. I wish I knew what to do right now, because we are two months from graduation and it feels like me and my friends are falling apart. I hate having to be the mean person, and I have really given up on being the mean person, but I think its time that I start to be mean again, I'm not gonna watch people hurt me or hurt my friends anymore.

Relationships..

I hate that I have these two friends who have been off and on dating for that last couple of months, and it feels like the always are fighting, if they don't have a reason to fight, they make up some imaginary problem they need to fight about. The real problem is that his ex girlfriend is like a stalker and tries to mess everything up, no matter how many times everyone tells her that she's acting immature and acting that way is not going to change anything. I couldn't image what my friends are going through having to deal with his ex girlfriend all the time, but it's getting out of hand, and causing my friend to get suicidal, because of her. It's hard when I don't know what to do or say, and I just want things to be okay for my Friends, but I'm speechless because the things seem so absurd to me. I really just want to help, and my Friend is pretty much begging for me to help, but I have no clue what to do or say, or half the time even think. I sure hope I can figure out what to do soon.

We are NOT Floor Mats, STOP Walking all Over Us...

So because of everything our friend has done to us recently, I have decided I am sick and tired of being his floor mat, and I refuse to do anymore favors for him. I have always been willing to do anything for my friends, and I try to make that very clear to them all. But this specific friend has taken it too far, and is not only walking all over me, but is walking all over everyone who cares about him, besides his girlfriend. I think I am going to talk to the rest of our friends, and put a stop to all of this, by making sure everyone refuses to do favors for him for a while, and see if he realizes that everyone is sick of his behavior. I'm even going to talk to his parents and let them know that he is not only disrespecting his peers, but also disrespecting his elders.

Favors...

When someone ask you to do a favor for them, they should respect you for doing that favor, and be upset when things did not go according to their plan. Yesterday, a friend of my boyfriend's and mine, asked us to drive some 40 something minutes to, and 40 something minutes back to pick up his girlfriend so that he could see her that day. Kyle and I always try to put our friends first, and normally are willing to do anything for our friends. So of course, we were willing to do it. The first disrespectful thing our friend did, was get mad that we wouldn't take him with us to pick her up, when our vehicle only has 3 seats, and he knew it would be illegal. I hate to be the one that upset him, but it was just not possible for 4 people to ride in a 3 seat truck for an hour and a half. So we could not take him. Then, as we pulled into my drive way to pick up things before we headed to church, he was waiting in my driveway, even though I specifically told him don't worry about anything, we will bring her to church. He did this knowing it would upset us, so not only did we just spend an hour and a half doing something for him, he did not respect us enough to go along with our decisions of the deal. I normally try to let things go like this, but he is starting to do this to all of his friends, and have no respect for us or our parents, or his only family. I hate to say it but I believe more and more every day that his girlfriend is a bad influence on him.
Later last night we all went to McDonald's to hang out, along with a group of our friends, there where two mothers, which we all ranted about the things, our friend was doing that we all though was getting out of hand. One of the mother's confided in us that she was still mad at him and that she would be until he apologized. His brother told him when our friend got there that he should apologize for a few things he did to upset her. He was very disrespectful to her, and still didn't say sorry. So after that he decided to tell his brother, that he did not care if we all hated him he was still going to do what he wanted. First off, no one hates him, we are just upset with his recent behavior, but I can't believe after everything everyone has been doing for him, that he is willing to be so disrespectful to us all.

Alone for the weekend...

My parents are going to Phoenix to visit my sister and my newborn nephew. I get to spend the weekend by myself, since my sister Sara is going to a babysitter. I'm kind of excited but at the same time a little scared of spending the nights alone. We will just see how it turns out. I do believe that it will be good for me since in just a few short months I will be moving out, well actually my parents will be moving out and I will still be at the house. I think the worse part about it all is that my parents will be gone on Easter which is slightly depressing , but my mom gave me money to buy my sister an Easter basket. Though Sara can't have candy because of her braces, but I'm gonna get her some bubbles and chalk, maybe a littlest petshop toy she likes, and because I would hate not getting candy, I'm gonna give her a little but of candy that wont be to bad on her braces.

Xavier Joseph..

My sister Danielle gave birth to a little boy on March 24th. He is the most beautiful little boy I have ever seen in my entire life. She named him Xavier Joseph, he was 8lb 1oz and 20.5 inches long. I can't wait til I get the chance to meet him and hold his cute little body. It will be a while since they live all the way in Phoenix, Arizona. I'm already so in love with my nephew it's insane, he is perfect.