The last day...

... of regular classes for our first semester has about 30 or so minutes left, meaning half of our senior year is just gone. Heck I feel like we just started this and now in the next week we finish the first half of the year, finish the whole year of 2009, and we've gotta order our caps and gowns which means graduation is only 6 months away! Scared - Yes! I am so not ready for this, lets see how Christmas break treats me next week while I'm visiting family in Michigan and then we're off to finish our senior year.

www.kentuckydachshundrescue.com

How exciting. I was at church yesterday and after we had got back form our SOME-thing missions, my friend Nathan came running up to me with a white T-shirt waving it in the air. He had found a shirt at the place he was doing his mission for the KENTUCKY DACHSHUND RESCUE. He knows I love Dachshunds so he asked if he could bring it to me. I really think this would be something I would be intresting in volenteering with, too bad its all the way in Georgetown. I'm so excited now and I can't wait to look into their program and help save wiener dogs. :D

Cap and Gown

So yesterday seniors went to a meeting to pick up and talk about order forms for caps and gowns, and other senior items we might want. It really makes me feel like graduation is right around the corner, and it's a whole 6 months away. I can't wait to see all the things that happen from next Thursday when I put in my order for Cap and Gown until 6 months down the road when I actually put on the cap and gown for graduation. Wow! All the possibilities. I hope to make a lot of good fun memories to write down in the memory book I order.

Giraffes...

So my best friend likes this girl and he wants to get her something she will really like for Christmas. I've met her and been trying to get to know her so that I can a) Know her and b) figure out what to tell him to get her for Christmas. I've learned a few things about her when I've spent time with her and on Black Friday when He and I, and my boyfriend and his little brother where out shopping I told him to get her a stuffed animal giraffe. He thought about it and then decided he didn't like the idea. About a week later we where at a Christmas party and he comes up to me sort of bashfully and say, "you where right". What had happened is he and her where at a friends house who happened to have a few stuffed animal giraffes which she screamed ran and picked up and refused to put down while he was there. He now has decided to get her a stuffed giraffe for Christmas. Who would have thought it, a girl knowing what a girl wants? lol. We are going to pick her out a cute one soon.

Prompt Writing: Carpe Diem

Prompt: Describe your day if you lived each day to the fullest...

I'm not so sure on how my day would go but I am sure that if I lived each day to the fullest that I wouldn't only accomplish more but I would become a more accomplished and an all around better person because of it. I know that I would go out and try to do more community service since I enjoy it and like the warm feeling I get inside from doing when I go out with my friends and do it every Wednesday night. I also would try to write down more about what I was doing while living my life to the fullest because I know I would have a lot to share and great stories that would be able to inspire others. I love the idea of living life to its fullest but I feel that my parents have put a block on how easy living life to the fullest is for me. I hate being 18 and feeling all the freedom in the world at my finger tips and as soon as I go to reach for it, it's like I get shocked and pulled back. I know this is a feeling that everyone goes through, but this isn't me. I want my freedom to live my life. I can't wait to get it, even though I know 10 years down the road I will be writing a blog about some regrets, or troubles from making my own decisions and how I wish I could go back. I just want to be able to feel those feelings without some one trying to stop me. It's not like I want to go out and drink alcohol and do drugs, or have a crazy rebellious life. I just want to be able to go to the library without going through 3rd degree with my parents.

Christmas List...

So my dad has been bugging me for a Christmas List and I always have trouble figuring out what I want but here I go.

Christmas List for My Dad in Michigan:
1.) Thick Red, White, and Yellow Headbands.
2.) Eyeliner, Liquid Eyeliner, and Mascara
3.) --- Something!

Christmas List for My parents in Kentucky:
1.) New Cell Phone
(I wouldn't normally ask for something like this, but they kinda brought up that I would probably be getting a cell phone for Christmas)
2.) Last 4 Gossip Girl Books
- Would I Lie to You?
- Don't You Forget About Me
- Gossip Girl: It Had To Be You
-I Will Always Love You
3.) Earrings

Christmas List for Kyle :
1.) Wiener Dog, of the Stufty Variety
2.) List Book
3.) A stocking (with Ring Pops, Pocky, Stickers, Jones Soda, little Piggy of some sort)

Stress..

So lately I've been realizing that I have a extremely high amount of stress in my life, and just knowing that is stressful. I really don't think at 18 I should be this stressed all the time, but I am. I stress about school, my parents, college, heck, I stress about the idea of being stressed. I just want to be able to relax, but the Idea of sitting down to relax makes me stress because I feel like I'm not going to be able to get something done, which in turn makes me more stressed. I really hate stress, so last week I had been stressed a lot, stopped doing a lot of my chores because I just wanted a break and winded up getting myself grounded and again more stressed out. So now I'm grounded, more stressed then ever, and don't get to spend the weekend with my friends, which are the only things that can turn down my stress. Stress is just stressful.

Final Exams...

So next week are final exams, and I am slightly nervous but slightly not at the same time, mostly I got out of my harder exams but I do have to take the two hardest exams. English and IB Math. I really rather not but I guess I don't have a choice. Which is stressing me out not to mention the fact that I have the ACT this Saturday, again I really rather not. I personally think if you have a B or above you should get out of an exam, because C is average and you are doing slightly above that. But they didn't ask me now did they? Oh, well I'm just gonna take the exams and hope that I pass them with flying colors, what ever that phrase actually means.

Paint Buckets

The simplest things give me some sense of being artistic, like inspiration. I desire to be an artist, not just a pencil to paper artist, but I want to create something, make something with my hands. Today the Idea of paint buckets reminded me of a shirt I got in the 10Th grade from my NHAS (National Honers Art Society), on the shirt their is a picture of a sink, and inside the sink is use paint brushes, plates with paint, and other things that go into creating a piece of work, and I realize that the beauty isn't just in the finished project its the beauty in creating it. I love the idea of used paint brushes and paint buckets with paint spilled over the edges as art, not just the art that is created with those buckets and brushes.

Deterioration...

deteriorating the a sand castle after a wave crashes on the beach,
like clocks melting off the wall,
like paint dripping off the canvas,
that's where we are today between deterioration and creation,
creating something new,
losing something old,
taking away from our past,
simply by creating a future,
for ourselves, for others, for anyone,
time melts away,
the color drips off,
and that's where we are,
creation which causes deterioration.