Waves of Babies!

It's weird how in my family babies come in waves. The current wave is My cousin Jeff is about to have his second son in less than 4 weeks. My Cousin Jenny is at risk for premature labor as I'm writing this with her first child, A little girl, I'm so excited for her. And her sister Sheri is about to have her sixth child. But the most important two pregnancies in my family right now are My little sister Danielle is pregnant, she will be finding out when she is due and the sex of the baby on Wednesday, I can't wait, I will have my cell phone next to me all day waiting for the text. Yesterday I saw the first picture she sent of her stomach! The second most important one is my real dad's girlfriend is pregnant, and in December I will be finding out if its a boy or a girl. Another sibling, and hopefully the last. I'm excited. I can't believe how much my family is growing around me.

My Father's Recognition

An avalanche of words rested on the tip of my tongue, eager to spill out just waiting for the slightest of sounds to slip out from his mouth. The constant arguing has nearly driven me insane by this point. Why is everything I do wrong? Has he not realized the mistakes that he himself has made over the years we have spent together. I understand that he is my father and that all things he say should be right, but he's never right, and I am always wrong. So where does this leave us, when we're both wrong. How can I try so hard to impress him with my every action, and every time I still fail to achieve the slightest recognition for it. Though my younger sister can do so many wrongs, and still can be the one he puts on the pedestal. I try not to be filled with such anger toward my sister, it's not really her fault that she is his favorite, but she does try so hard to rub it in my face. I just wish he could see how bad it hurts me to know that I can never do anything to achieve any recognition from him.