Relationships..

I hate that I have these two friends who have been off and on dating for that last couple of months, and it feels like the always are fighting, if they don't have a reason to fight, they make up some imaginary problem they need to fight about. The real problem is that his ex girlfriend is like a stalker and tries to mess everything up, no matter how many times everyone tells her that she's acting immature and acting that way is not going to change anything. I couldn't image what my friends are going through having to deal with his ex girlfriend all the time, but it's getting out of hand, and causing my friend to get suicidal, because of her. It's hard when I don't know what to do or say, and I just want things to be okay for my Friends, but I'm speechless because the things seem so absurd to me. I really just want to help, and my Friend is pretty much begging for me to help, but I have no clue what to do or say, or half the time even think. I sure hope I can figure out what to do soon.

We are NOT Floor Mats, STOP Walking all Over Us...

So because of everything our friend has done to us recently, I have decided I am sick and tired of being his floor mat, and I refuse to do anymore favors for him. I have always been willing to do anything for my friends, and I try to make that very clear to them all. But this specific friend has taken it too far, and is not only walking all over me, but is walking all over everyone who cares about him, besides his girlfriend. I think I am going to talk to the rest of our friends, and put a stop to all of this, by making sure everyone refuses to do favors for him for a while, and see if he realizes that everyone is sick of his behavior. I'm even going to talk to his parents and let them know that he is not only disrespecting his peers, but also disrespecting his elders.

Favors...

When someone ask you to do a favor for them, they should respect you for doing that favor, and be upset when things did not go according to their plan. Yesterday, a friend of my boyfriend's and mine, asked us to drive some 40 something minutes to, and 40 something minutes back to pick up his girlfriend so that he could see her that day. Kyle and I always try to put our friends first, and normally are willing to do anything for our friends. So of course, we were willing to do it. The first disrespectful thing our friend did, was get mad that we wouldn't take him with us to pick her up, when our vehicle only has 3 seats, and he knew it would be illegal. I hate to be the one that upset him, but it was just not possible for 4 people to ride in a 3 seat truck for an hour and a half. So we could not take him. Then, as we pulled into my drive way to pick up things before we headed to church, he was waiting in my driveway, even though I specifically told him don't worry about anything, we will bring her to church. He did this knowing it would upset us, so not only did we just spend an hour and a half doing something for him, he did not respect us enough to go along with our decisions of the deal. I normally try to let things go like this, but he is starting to do this to all of his friends, and have no respect for us or our parents, or his only family. I hate to say it but I believe more and more every day that his girlfriend is a bad influence on him.
Later last night we all went to McDonald's to hang out, along with a group of our friends, there where two mothers, which we all ranted about the things, our friend was doing that we all though was getting out of hand. One of the mother's confided in us that she was still mad at him and that she would be until he apologized. His brother told him when our friend got there that he should apologize for a few things he did to upset her. He was very disrespectful to her, and still didn't say sorry. So after that he decided to tell his brother, that he did not care if we all hated him he was still going to do what he wanted. First off, no one hates him, we are just upset with his recent behavior, but I can't believe after everything everyone has been doing for him, that he is willing to be so disrespectful to us all.

Alone for the weekend...

My parents are going to Phoenix to visit my sister and my newborn nephew. I get to spend the weekend by myself, since my sister Sara is going to a babysitter. I'm kind of excited but at the same time a little scared of spending the nights alone. We will just see how it turns out. I do believe that it will be good for me since in just a few short months I will be moving out, well actually my parents will be moving out and I will still be at the house. I think the worse part about it all is that my parents will be gone on Easter which is slightly depressing , but my mom gave me money to buy my sister an Easter basket. Though Sara can't have candy because of her braces, but I'm gonna get her some bubbles and chalk, maybe a littlest petshop toy she likes, and because I would hate not getting candy, I'm gonna give her a little but of candy that wont be to bad on her braces.

Xavier Joseph..

My sister Danielle gave birth to a little boy on March 24th. He is the most beautiful little boy I have ever seen in my entire life. She named him Xavier Joseph, he was 8lb 1oz and 20.5 inches long. I can't wait til I get the chance to meet him and hold his cute little body. It will be a while since they live all the way in Phoenix, Arizona. I'm already so in love with my nephew it's insane, he is perfect.

A midsummer Night's Dream...

After being asked to write a reflection once my senior English class finished Shakespeare's play, A Midsummer Night's Dream I decided that I actually liked reading this play. We got to vote on if we would rather read A Midsummer Night's Dream or Macbeth, I'm glad we read A Midsummer Night's Dream because it was a comedy not a tragedy. I really like the poetic language in A Midsummer Night's Dream and how it represented and reveled love. I really liked the way that in the end, everyone was happy even after they faced so many difficulties to get to that happiness. Shakespeare is a genius with the way he uses symbols, especially the love potion, when he expresses the crazy things people do as a love potion.

Waiting...

I'm not sure if this is my earliest memory, I'm not sure how old I was exactly at this moment but this is a memory. I was very young between 2 and 4, sitting on the brown carpet mashing colorful blocks together building something, though I'm not sure what. The screen door was open, and a faint breeze was blowing in. I remember everyone was sad, and had been for a while, I remember it was my first feelings of being lonely, though I wasn't sure why I felt that way. I heard a car pull into the drive way and jumped up, scattering my blocks around where I was sitting. I climbed up the teal colored couch, stabbing my little fingers into the fabric and pulling myself up the back of the couch toward the window seal. I grabbed the curtains and pushed them away from the window, pushed my face against the cool glass, and screamed "Uncle Danny". My mom came running from the kitchen, stumbling past the blocks. At this point I realized it was not my Uncle Danny pulling in our drive way, and it hadn't been the last few times someone came to visit. My mother scooped my little body up into her arms and held me close. I felt her warm tears against my face, which caused me to start crying.
At that point I didn't understand death, and didn't realize my Uncle was not coming over to visit anymore, not that day, and not ever. My mom brings this up when she gets upset about missing family that has passed away, because she thinks it's a good example of how we all feel inside. Still waiting for someone to pull in the driveway and get out of that car, and just not be dead anymore. Sometimes, we just keep on waiting, and that someone just never shows up.

Camille..

Camille is a beautiful girl, she's artistic, and funny, and out of the ordinary. She seems so comfortable in her skin, even though because she's my best friend, but I know shes not. It's okay that she's not she doesn't have to be, I still think she's great.

I've always had this issue with girls, never wanted a girl best friend, but the day I met her, that changed everything. It's really amazing how we don't have to say a word but can just be in the silence and that is okay, things are okay just like that. I like being able to sit with her completely quite and know exactly what she's feeling. I know if she needs to talk if she wants to just be let alone. Sometimes I have to cover for her and pretend she's okay when I know she isn't, and she doest have to tell me this, I just know.

Timmy..

My best guy friend in the world, he's probably the goofiest guy I have ever met but he is awesome. I like how in our relationship we can just talk about anything, what ever we want to talk about and it's alright, because we will never judge one another. We are always open with one another and okay to talk about anything.
The best thing about this relationship we have, is that his girlfriend is my best friend, and he is my boyfriends best friend, so we have this extreme comfort with one another. So it's not just me and him that have this comfort with one another is this group of the four of us.

Kyle..

Kyle is my boyfriend, and pretty much my number one best friend. I know he is always there for me when I need a shoulder to lean on, and will always answer my 2 am calls when I wake up from a nightmare. It's pretty great knowing I have him around, and I'm not gonna sit here and say, "and we will be together forever and ever", because sure I would like for it to turn out that way, but I'm not so stupid to believe that things can never change, or something can't go wrong. But as of Today I can say, I love having him around, I love having him with me. He helps to keep me calm. He helps to make me stop stressing out, and to just calm and see the beauty of the day.
I can't believe how lucky I really am to have him in my life, even if it's just for a while, I'm going to enjoy every moment it. I love him, I really do. Things with him seem perfect, even though every once in a while we get into little spats over stupid things. I just know having him here with me means things will be alright.